Today my Grandfather died.
This is after nearly 50 years of battling MS and 3 days without treating his infections and no feeding tube.
I am not dealing with this confrontation very well.. and although my Grandpa is the one who just passed, I am mainly greiving the loss of my Grandma Carol. She died last May, also due to various complications with MS.
My understanding of her death still leaves me at a gaping loss as to why I can't have her back. I can't believe how ridiculous and unreasonable I am being! I am firm in my faith and belief of an afterlife, but it always comes down to this:
I miss her. a lot. and there is not one thing I can do about it.
I'm a somewhat logical person, but my mere-mortal understanding doesn't grasp how she used to be here, on earth, in my life, and how she is 'just not here' anymore.
Death in alienating. It is weird and I don't like it.
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You are not alone, my dear. In the midst of all the wonderfulness that God has done, He is there to be our comforter. I know there is so much more that God has for us, but in the meantime, there is pain and suffering and it hurts. I don't understand like sometimes I wish I could, but I do know that the Father of compassion is with you and your family now, as always. Loves and Hugs.
I'm sorry to hear about your grandfather Sara. We just knew now from the blog. Though we really miss the people who are not with us anymore, time heals and makes better and God makes up for our pain with comfort and joy in other relationships He blesses us with. I love the fact that He creates new life when I see little children, little gifts of life to love and be loved by them. And I'm sure you have more than enough of those right now :)
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